Well Alright!

It's 4:44 A.M., I'm up and can't sleep...I'm grooving to Marvin Gaye's, "Got to Give it Up"!  I'm excited about something, but don't quite know what it is yet.  And for all of those that know me, who say, "Yahminah, you're always happy about something!", PHAMLI this is different.  When God moves, there is nothing ordinary about His Movement, FAVOR and Placement, believe me!  It's kind of like a feeling that I've never had before, like...the day of a beautiful well planned, ceremony or something...Hummm (Mirbaile) Stay Tuned for that 1 - WINK!  Anyway, I have some good butterflies this early morning and It's All Good. Let it be Unto me!  This is nice!

Today!

Today, I feel better than I ever have, I'm happy, my mind is clear, my hearts in a good place & and I feel good about the Beauty & Promise of this New Season of my Life.  Within a multitude of deep and reflective thoughts, I've found some AHA moments and Epiphanies just a hiding behind closed doors.  I thought about where I've been and what I've done in my life prior to this moment and realized that I have been blessed to have been a pupil of Life's wonderful teaching moments and I'm graduating to a new level of progression.  Today, I've come to understand the awesome principle of stewardship on great levels, I've learned how to accept me and all that I am and have to offer in the best way that only I can and I've learned what the Power of Love in many forms can do, especially the love of self. WOW. WatchoutNAH

On the Inside

I'm changing, I'm renewing and I am being rejuvenated by the Hope of Life.    

I've been humbled, boy have I been humbled, but I'm a blessed woman for it, believe me!  I've been hurt and broken and then healed and restored. I've learned how to be silent, use wisdom, intercede and enjoy my living in seconds.  I've discovered the value in all things that I consider to be important and have found some interesting things in the petals of my own rose.  I have so much to be grateful and thankful for and I have decided to live my life thankfully...There's something new behind this smile, so GET READY!  I'm Moving forward and about, Navigating through Destiny as I am called.  I'm getting focused, planning, preparing and have found a NUJOI at my center.  My faith is stronger than it has ever been and I'm coming out...the new box that I willfully created, because as people of Light, when we change, we grow and oftentimes reach a level of comfort, in a box where we begin to dress the walls like windows. (Get that somebody!) 

Ease on Down!

I'm Skipping around the atmosphere in the Spirit, Singing, "Can You Feel a Brand New Day", from the WIZ! I'm Smiling, Clapping & Laughing and checking on the Vision, and reminding it that I have faith!  It's all good and no matter what's not, I know will be and whatever I don't have that I desire, I will have. There's no stopping me, and nothing that I will claim as a Hindrance, because right now today at this moment, right at this specific time, It's all good, and It's well with my soul.  Restoration, is that you!

Spoken Words

So, as the sun began to rise, I stood in the middle of my bedroom and looked around me and began to speak what I wanted to see and happen in my life.  So once I was done, waking everyone else in the house, lol! I took out my journal and wrote, "Where I wanted to be in 4 months:..."  The more I wrote, the more specific I became, specifying makes, models, colors, directions, sizes, levels, etc...You name it, I wrote it!  I'm so looking forward to what's about to happen in this season that I can hardly contain myself. Actually, just today, I was told that I was glowing...and you know what I AM.  

My Dearest PHAMLI,

  Although, I may not know all of you, I love you in spirit and want nothing but the best for you and your lives. I wanted to share this with you, as I know that there are many of you out there who are coming to some resolves in your life, entering new seasons, and understanding the seasons that you just came out of.  Whatever it is that you want to accomplish, see or experience in your life, begin making a list and writing the Vision for YOUR Life.  Make it plain enough to understand, so that when you refer back to it, as you grow, your journey will become even clearer.  If you feel stuck, walk to a mirror and call things that were not as though they were and say (in the spirit of the movie the 6th sense), "I see Powerful People!" I hope that you develop an allergy to Negativity and I pray that you embrace the spirit of positivity.  Learn any and everything that you can from the lessons that life has to teach you. Please Be a good steward of what the Creator Invests in you and Keep it Positive and Moving...Always.  

P.S.-Since no one is promised tomorrow, I will say that if it be the Father's will to allow me to see 2011, I guarantee that It's ON! In a good way ofcourse!

I send this positive energy to all who will receive it, may Goodness, Grace, Power and Mercy Rest Upon you!

With the Best Intentions

Belazadu'm

Yahminah McIntosh

Spiritual Pieces: PHAMLI Matters

Usually before I go to sleep, I try to set time aside to reflect on my day, write, meditate, get into prayer, rest and relax. And even though this requires quite a bit of discipline, they are definitely things that I am striving to be more consistent in doing. As I was coming out of my reflection and meditation, there was something that was placed in my spirit, and for some reason The Creator saw fit to share it with me, and it is always my intention to be a good steward of what I'm given, so I sow these thoughts and words with the best intention...


I always wondered how our ancestors and elders made it through their lives, usually ending in one piece. How they coped, picked themselves up when they fell, smiled when all they had were tears, forgave when anger ruled their lives and pitched in to raise a village even when they were tabling the raising of their own hell. There had to be a science to it, I thought, because there is no way on God's green earth, anyone could survive without some kind of contingency plan (wink!)

Now I know that it was by grace and faith, that's a given for most instances, and a lot of good old working through it, until their change came, is what they had to do. I envision them all walking to what I call the "Safe House", located in the middle of nowhere, where there was music and singing and where they could all hear something Powerful to Empower them.  Now today, we struggle to find, light at the end of tunnels, silver linings, hope and peace, and a host of other things that we need. We often times, forget our humanness, and the fact that we matter.

Now with that being said, I've come all the way from the other side of the rainbow (after a rainstorm of course), to tell you that:
If you have ever felt like your life is moving s l o w, and that you are not where you want to be
If you feel like everyone else is prospering and you are in the same exact place, each and every year with no movement or progression
If you are feeling mistreated, misunderstood, frustrated
and taken for granted, looked over and forgotten
insignificant, unattractive, like a failure
and if you are feeling over whelmed, unfocused, out of sink
and off kilter
You might be feeling like no one cares
and that you will never have any of the things in your life that you desire
You might be having a hard time getting your life in order
You might be reaching and your arms are tired
walking the right way, but the soles of your feet are burning
You might be feeling stuck, like you can't move
unable to forgive, unwilling to release
You may be hurt and unable to breathe
You name it, you could be going through it
You might be ready to throw in the towel, cover your furniture with white sheets
and throw up the deuces to life and disappear

My Dearest PHAMLI
 I just want you to know that...YOU MATTER, YOU ARE IMPORTANT, YOU ARE SOMEBODY and if no one else cares, or tells you that you do, just know that the world is a better place because you're in it. Even though today and moments before today you may have felt maybe some, one, or all of the feelings above, tomorrow is a brand new day. Don't allow how you feel to dictate, how you'll grow into the Awesome person that you were created to be, and move closer to your destiny. Be Encouraged, Lift Your Head Up, Know that it will get better, Put one foot in front of the other and continue to walk (you can even strut if you want to) Take time to reflect, go inward and work on yourself. Begin to place value on the things and people that matter in your life and discard the rest. Try to make good and healthy decisions for your life and family, seek to be a good steward of all things in your life, and listen to the atmosphere. If you are overstimulated, seek to quiet yourself, because in the end, the last song playing, will always be something that you've written and produced.


May Peace, Love and Full Blessings be yours today.
God Bless
Belazadu'm
Yahminah McIntosh

Judah's Cymphoni

Making Faces                                                                                     Today I learned so much from my son's life, that caused me to look at myself, make some changes and reflect.  I enjoyed being a mommy, today! Laughing and dancing with my son, making faces with him, hugging him, and taking pictures of him, as he posed. (He's so grown) For the first time in my life, I rolled around and played trains with him, and watched him smile as he enjoyed his mommy.  It's taken me a long time to arrive at this point, but I love what I've become as a mother.  I don't know everything, and I sure wish that he came with instructions ( I tell Ya!), but in the end, I'm glad that he didn't because, I'm learning something new everyday!  He's so intuitive and has been paying attention to me all this time, my emotions, what I go through, the things that I say and how I am feeling.  He knows my heart, and understands me. I learned how he associates the better part me that makes me whole and how he views my life.  Absolutely, life changing moments, within this day, I've had.

Judah

My son Micaiah Judah Shalom is 7 years old and is Autistic, and is one of the most amazing little people that I've ever met.  His name is like a prayer and statement of power for me, because he was a miracle child. He was born prematurely, he had a weak heart that stopped often, didn't breathe on his own and was given only days to live.  How many people reading this know, that just when you try to bury the dry bones, the instruction to speak and bring life could be on the horizon, if you're willing to listen?  Now having lost a child before, I knew that there was one thing that I could do, and that was enjoy the time that I would have with him.  So, when I looked at him yesterday, I remembered the day that I decided to step out on faith and ignore the what ifs, and probabilities of him living on machines and not having a full life, and began to speak, life over him.  

I'm not much for "nay saying or hopelessness" nor do I give too much energy to thinking about what might happen if it doesn't work or negativity, but reality does exist and it can't be ignored, but I usually try to be optimistic in all things.  When his eyes smiled at me, I nearly melted and was made happy, because his innocence is priceless.  He trusts me and knows that I will take good care of him.  I've been blessed enough and still enough to enjoy these moments with him.  He's definitely Cymphoni's (my deceased daughter) baby brother, who was sent here to give momma a little piece of love and quiet, a measure of hope and joy, and mountain moving faith.  Even though I've claimed him victorious in all things through his life, whether I'm here or not, I discovered his purpose and want nothing less than the absolute best of all things for him.  I want him to know that he's loved, enjoy and experience his family and home, and LIVE more Abundantly.

The Busy Bee                                                Anyone who knows me, knows that I was a busy busy busy bee (Lord have mercy), always moving, thinking, working, planning, etc...I really did think that I could save the world, and realized that I needed to get rid of my Jesus complex, real quick, because at the end of the day, I am still human. I never really took the time to smell the roses, but that started to change for me this year, when I discovered my own humanness. And more so today, I decided to not only start smelling them, but picking a couple and planting some new breeds, as I shake off old seeds! (that's right)

So, this was a good day, and although there was only 1 thing missing...I have no complaints, no regrets and I'm just plain old happy to be alive.  I don't have anything super deep or profound to share, but what I do have is a gift.  Today was full of very interesting moments...What I realized is that its not just what you could be praying, wishing and hoping for, but what you do with what's granted to you, and what kind of stewardship you enact to carry your part out.  And what you sow in word, thought and action in the meantime, can make all the difference in the world (I honestly believe this). 

This year has been an interesting one, filled with many lessons and experiences that are continually shaping and molding me as a person.  I've been somewhat still and have found value in some of the most peculiar pieces of myself.  I've realized that no matter how strong and tough that I am (smile), that I am still a woman first. I've noticed how quiet I've become, as I've listened to my life change and how I'm learning to pay so many things no never mind...because in the end, life is only what you make it, and when its all said and done, they really don't matter any way.   I heard a word yesterday, that has been on my mind; "Make some space and take a Leap of Faith!", now when I heard this, I had to look around and make sure that I was actually sitting and listening, instead of speaking, but boy did the message sound like it was coming from me!  I can't tell you how many times, I've been speaking to the choir, while singing lead, and calling the kettle black while making my own ginger tea~ (get that somebody).  All in all, I was at a place in my life that I could actually receive it.

The List

So, I was moved to make a list of all of the things in my life that I wanted to change, the things that I wanted to accomplish and everything that I wanted to do before I left this earth.  I had to laugh because usually people do things like this on their death beds, but I am very much alive and kicking and just putting things into a healthy perspective.  I recognize that "DOWN TIME, is just PREP TIME", while you're WORKING OUT and giving ATTENTION to the things in your life that need  a little extra care.  I've also noticed that I've been the most blessed, while learning to be more humble, even though it sometimes may seem that my train occasionally loses a signal while on the right track, or that I may miss the Creator on a thing or 2, but I'm good. 

Anyway, I'll save the rest of that thought for a later piece! In the mean time smile.

My Dearest PHAMLI,

  Today, I just wanted to write or blog..I hope something stuck out and blessed you in some way, as that is always my intention.  I send peace, positive thoughts and encouraging words your way.  Make a list, check it twice, value your life and don't take anything or anyone for granted. 

God Bless

Belazadu'm

Yahminah McIntosh