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Although many people would like to believe that I wake up everyday bouncing around the house and skipping down the yellow brick road like Dorothy, cheesing like Sponge Bob and flying around like Mary Poppins, I don't. As a matter of fact, I don't always wake up everyday with a smile on my face, but that usually quickly changes once I thank the Creator for waking me up and allowing me to be in my right mind.
I have difficult days and times just like anyone else. I see darkness too and wish for sunlight and for storms to pass me over. I've dropped to my knees and pleaded with God before, and I've made mistakes, been at fault, listened to things that I didn't like, frowned, and just plain old silent when I didn't feel like saying or being around anyone. But the fact of the matter, is that usually as I am charging into my day, that I take a deep breath, close my eyes and encourage myself and say...Well Alright, and so it is as it is, everything is going to be alright!
Sometimes I react to somethings as if I am hearing or seeing them for the first time, and as strange as that may be to some, this has been a coping mechanism that has worked for me. It's actually true, that I may sometimes seem unaffected by things that should affect me, or speak HOPE over burning paper when there is no water in sight, or wish the best from the worst situations or am not as moved by the raging storms of life and buried by pain that I'm sure would have loved to throw ashes on my grave.
My spirit has been broken before, so that's for those who say, she's just not lived yet, and my heart has ached before...I've been disappointed just like anyone else, and I've sat on the porch of life waiting for my ride to come and take me away, at a time and it never did show up. I've survived the recession, lost everything that I've had, and am regaining everything double fold. I've looked death in the face not one but 5 times and have feared the reflection of my own face. I've walked with canes through glass filled valleys barefoot, and closed my eyes squinting wishing and depending on my weakened faith to move mountains, while drinking my own lemonade with mustard seeds. (metaphoric for sure). What I'm saying is that my positive attitude comes from the desire to live and continue to live, as well as I can, through anything that life hands me. It's not because I haven't been through anything, but that I've been through almost everything and I'm still here.
One of the most important things that I've discovered in my life, is how I view the present, past and how I hope for the future. It's just like when you grow from one journey and glory of your life to the next, your perception of certain things begins to change. Everyday, I make time to reflect, clear my mind, get grounded and pray, so that I can be most clear and present and take on whatever I have to and give the right amount of energies as required. My prayer is that you were blessed by something that you read, and that you work to improve your attitude if it needs a little adjusting. Whether you're a realist or an optimist, your attitude at all times, will always be the most important.
Sending a wave of encouragement and positivity to everyone and a blessing for every area of your lives. May your outlooks change and may you begin to look at your lives in a different light. I hope that you are able to see beyond the affect of your circumstances and situations. I pray that you find yourself laughing and smiling in the middle of the day, and that you are able to have a positive outlook at the most difficult times of your life. May prosperity and peace be yours.
Until Next Time
Be Well
Belazadu'm
Yahminah McIntosh
