Talitha Cumi (The Rebirth of YMC)

...For the HEALING that restored the brokenness, and the LOVE that embraced you and provided for your every need, and the PEACE that surpassed all that was fathomable and has calmed your soul during the season of GROWTH, will position itself to guard THEE, and the POWER that raised them ALL from a SWEET SLUMBER is YOURS TODAY! Daughter Dance and sing the praises with your expression, smile to encourage the nations and stand and do all that you can to stand. May your everyday be filled with FAVOR and may you be Blessed,

On Top and Have all things Under Your Feet!

Well done and may all be well with your soul, Indeed...YMC

Talitha Cumi, Yahminah McIntosh ARISE!

...for Today everything that I knew to be normal has changed, and I no longer dream with my eyes closed and I'm READY to see" YMC



"As survivors of anything tragic, life changing, catastrophic or so deep that you have lost your mind and can not find your Living Heart Beat", we have an astonishing capacity to maintain our equilibrium in the face of life's mutability and unceasing and unforeseeable vicissitudes. This agility, is always in stark and frequently comical contradistinction to those who are held captive to the naive and brittle delusional "mind set" that life can't get better, people can not change and Things Lost in the Fire can not be Found Unharmed..." Believe in the Impossible, because it CAN HAPPEN!

Minah in the Raw
The truth is, that a sistah has been off kilter for a season, out of sink with the creator and not necessarily doing what it is that she knows she needs to do. (Embarrassing to some degree, but true; However, when you know what you need to do, and obtain the directions from The Creator, there is no stopping you.) My prayer life has suffered and I had began an unhealthy disconnect with the Creator. I "Created" my own sense of certainty and assurance because of the knowledge and wisdom that I believed that I had gained from the journeys that I've experienced. I ran around trying to fix and calm THE SEAS in my life that were becoming more turbulent as the days went by and pushed the JOY that knocked on my doors in the morning to the way side so that I could sacrifice myself in the name of all that I believed was good.

The taller I stood, the shorter I became as I leaned on my own Understanding of what was happening, treating the Lord as if I needed to carry this load all on my own and that HIM doing so was interrupting HIM working on the lives of others. Interesting, I tell You, these "GROWING PAINS", all of which were unfamiliar to me, but no Victory ever comes without a measure of PAIN, GROWTH & CHANGE... I am grateful for the experiences and know that THIS HERE GROWTH AND EMERGENCE WILL BE NO JOKE. SHE'S COMING BACK WITH A VENGEANCE AND IT SHALL BE POWERFUL AND SWEET INDEED! That's Right (Wink)!

I'm grateful for another moment in time and as I continue to work out some things in the spirit, I am satisfied with the results. I found that no matter what things looked like or even felt like, that they were forming together for MY greater good. Romans 8:28 & Philippians 4:19 (Azuelo Lord)

A Speaking Heart

Recently a reader commented on the spiritual nature of my writing as of late, and asked why the change. I answered, letting them know that I have always acknowledged the Father in everything that I've done and that for every time and season there is an appointed matter of the heart, mind and soul that need to be addressed.

I am sure that now is the SEASON WHEN MY LIFE HAS TO COMPLETELY CHANGE AND I MUST SHED THE SKINS OF OLD, AND RECEIVE A NEW WINE, SO THAT I CAN BE MORE EFFECTIVE IN AFFECTING THE LIVES OF OTHERS.

See, I have no interest in staying the same, or losing my fizz (Like a cold Pepsi, left open), or even speaking words that are never heard but look pretty. I am even more intentional about preparing myself (like Esther before meeting the KING), so that WHAT I DO IN THIS LIFE, WILL FALL UPON FERTILE GROUND AND GROW.

A small fish can't grow in a big tank if its not fed and stays at the bottom, under the rocks that dress the tank..(Get that somebody!). There is only so much that I can do by myself, and the fact of the matter is that I am nothing without HIM, and every talent and piece of wisdom that I've been gifted are wonderful and marvelous, but I DESIRE THE CHARACTER OF A LION AND THE RESILIENCE OF AN EAGLE and that is what is developing in me NOW.

BACK TO THE MIDDLE

I pray that you are Moved to PAUSE, REFLECT AND CHANGE, the things in your life that are calling for your attention!!!!! As a matter of fact, you need to take out your spiritual CHECK BOOK AND CREDIT CARD and once you're given the TOTAL, PAY IT, ATTENTION THAT IS! Sometimes you have to sit down, or stand still and look around you, and listen to EVERYTHING and BE WATCHFUL. Remember you can't change what you don't acknowledge and there is NO WAY ON THIS EARTH THAT YOU CAN DO EVERYTHING THAT YOU NEED TO DO ON YOUR OWN, without being connected to A LIVING VINE.

I don't care how great you think you are, how much money you have or who you know, because in the end the truth is that there are "NO BIG SHOTS IN REALITY". That's right!

If you want to change, be successful, be happy, have joy, be healthy, or experience the Abundance in this life, you have to be willing to sacrifice a season of comfort in exchange for many seasons of PROSPERITY IN EVERY AREA OF YOUR LIFE AS YOU GROW. Azuelo Lord, Indeed!

The Truth

I know it to be true and evident that, Every Single Solitary Thing Done, Said and Thought of in the Dark, will BE MANIFESTED IN THE LIGHT, and WHATEVER SHALL BE, WILL BE, AT ITS APPOINTED TIME AND SEASON. Speak what you want to happen, with FAITH in mind, and get back to the middle. Restore your relationship with the creator. Spend some time meditating, praying or in the quiet, or whatever you have done that has BEEN EFFECTIVE IN GETTING YOU BACK TO THE PLACE THAT YOU NEED TO BE, and when you GET TO THAT PLACE, be INTENTIONAL ABOUT MOVING FAR BEYOND WHERE YOU WERE. PLEASE!

ANEW

I see myself in a NEW Light, with different EYES now and it is the most amazing feeling. Sometimes people wait their whole entire lives to find that Special Thing that will be the catalyst in their evolvement, like a person, finances, job, etc...; but In this case, it was none of those things that got me to this point, but my OWN Will and desire to MOVE HIGHER, LIVE and find the things that the Devil stole from me and take my POWER Back, and MAKE ROOM FOR THE GREAT THINGS THAT WERE WAITING FOR ME!

I now realize that, EVERYTHING ELSE is just icing on the CAKE, motherhood, my life, my love, my gifts, my ministry, my health, my possessions, etc.... Lately I've been talking alot about growth, maturity, evolving and the seasons of life, mainly because of where I am and where it is that I am going.

TRIALS & SEASONS

A Trial will always, move you out of your COMFORT Zone and give you a choice to "PHLUFF' your pillow where you are, or give you the tools that you need, so that you can GROW. Today I PHOUND solitude in the GRACE OF MY OWN GIFTS and for the first time in my life, I've BEEN ABLE TO CELEBRATE THE FRUITFULNESS OF MY OWN ACTIONS. While looking at the thawing lake, I found SATISPHACTION and EXCITEMENT as I thought about the LOVE, PEACE, PHREEDOM AND STRENGTH inside of ME that I'm finding.

I realized that I was in a place that I had never been before and I HAVE NO FEAR, NONE, NADA, ZIP, ZILCH...I am forever Changed, because I CHOSE TO LIVE, AND LIVE I SHALL INDEED...The more that I was forced to pay attention to myself and my life, the more intimate I became with WHO I WAS, WHERE I WAS GOING, WHAT I WANTED AND BEGAN TO LEARN HOW TO SHIELD MYSELF AND REPAIR ME...

The Petals Inside

See...Oftentimes we are beat up by life, hurt during the course of our transitions, defeated while fighting chosen battles and almost drowned during wicked storms.

Many times we decide to make a choice to just lay down, stop breathing, stop feeling, and close our eyes and give up the greatest parts of ourselves that we've never had the opportunity to experience. We begin wearing our bruises as "Badges of Honor", carrying our PAIN as if it is a GIFT, and stay hidden in the shadows of life, weighted by the chips that dominate our shoulders, and carry packs of defeat across our whipped backs.

This sometimes causes us to bury the aspirations of being HEALED, being Fulfilled, CHANGING and Starting Over, and leaving us motionless and almost lifeless. Sometimes we begin to LIMP on our journey's creating Chasms along our way, disabling us to walk through the threshold of HOPE. The solution is LIVING OUTSIDE OF YOUR STORM, NOT BEING DROWNED BY THE RAIN, BUT ALLOWING THE DOWNPOUR TO CLEANSE YOUR RECESSES OF HEART...

WITH WISDOM!
I realize that LIFE is interesting and there will be times that tougher than others...I am being blessed with the opportunity to take a step back and take a moment to remove myself from the hustle and bustle of life and be still. I made up in my mind that seeing the Culmination of my JOY was a MUST! I realized that I was maturing Significantly and certain things no longer moved me or tickled my fancy. I began to listen to the music that I've been hearing in my spirit lately and prioritized which one I would face first. I'm RECONCILING my past, ATONING FOR THE THINGS I'VE DONE and beginning to Heal AND GROW even more on a DIFFERENT LEVEL, and releasing those things that beset me.

..Although my previous Seasons were immersed in some of the most consuming, astounding, unique and enlightening experiences, they were all REMARKABLE and Fascinating even at their most difficult of times. Thank YA! I've had some Character Building Experiences, where I've retired my cape, to be stitched and have elevated my feet above my heart, so that I could prepare for my journey FORWARD. If Esther could do it, I KNOW THAT I CAN TOO and I DIDN'T PERISH and I WON'T PERISH!

...those of us who give out, encourage, inspire and motivate, can become immune to the affect that our actions produce, leaving us to be restored, using the only resources that we are familiar with, which are OUR OWN GIFTS...YMC

THE JOURNEY FORWARD
As the ice forms on my steps, I see the glimmer from the moonlight and the exhaust from my own breath as I get my mail. I'm enjoying a cup of my favorite YOGI peppermint tea, as I stand in my kitchen leaning on my counter top looking out of the window, attending to the call of the Moon...It's dark and peaceful and my favorite candles are burning throughout. I took my tea and began walking through my house, it was almost like, I was walking in slow motion and saw a lighted pathway on my wooden floors, leading me down a familiar path. Jill Scott's "Come to the Light" is playing and as I reached my computer, it was like taking the white sheets off of, antique furniture in a forgotten Mansion, where the prominent once lived, but now have passed on.

In my spirit, I envisioned the BELOVED ancestor's applauding, praying for me and whistling! I found strength in this Vibrant Sound that resonated through the veins of my engrossment.

HERE I AM

To be honest, I never thought that I would write again, love me again, hear again or see again. I never thought that I could appreciate who I was, or forgive myself for my own actions. I never thought that I could forget, or even be real enough to express this HERE PIECE. I never thought that I'd pick up another pen or sit and invest my expressions into words that would be shared with the world.

I've written many times in my head, and have shared my morsels but had not made the decision to PUSH... When I sat down, I closed my eyes and tears began to fall, because if you knew my story, and heard what I've heard and seen what I've seen, you would understand. One of the best things that I had to do was, OPEN MY LIFE & CHANGE MY MIND, ABOUT CHANGING MY MIND AND HEAR THE CALL IN MY SOUL AND BEGIN TO ASCEND!!!

GRASSHOPPER
I've learned how to Live, how to Love, how to Understand, how to Listen, how to be Patient, how Change my way of thinking, how to Be and Stay Honest, be Consistent, how to Grow, how to Forgive, how to Learn, how to Accept ME and Love ME more, how to Let Go, how to Choose my Battles and how to embrace life. I've learned lessons the HARD WAY, dipped in "I told You So" with Cherries on the TOP, and have been served "Check Mate" Sandwhiches with a hint of Ruthless Spice, washed down with, some good old Bitter Sweet HYPE Tea with Lemon Grenades!!!

The truth is that now at 34 years old, I never thought that I would say this, but I am looking forward to gettng older, because what you learn in the meantime, is PRICELESS! Indeed

The Value of what I've learned and am learning, brings a measure of relief, that can only come FROM THE STRENGTH THAT IT TAKES, TO SAUNTER THROUGH THE HARD STUFF!


bELOVED
We spend so much time trying to figure our lives out, find ourselves, change our pasts, and plan our futures; However, what we fail to realize is that doing none of the above will soften the many blows that will confront us. The only way to Grow is to Live, and the only way to Live is to be OPEN TO LEARN AND GROW. I believe that assessing yourself, eliminating negativity, immaturity, harmful self inflictions, and releasing selfishness are the only ways to live in this life.
It can be done, and it doesn't take $100 an hour to do, nor can you find this in a bottle, in a person or in a drug. You have to want to Open up your eyes to your own life and begin to hear and see, what you need to HEAR AND SEE. Experience is LITERALLY the best teacher, HOWEVER, this COACH DOES NOT TAKE KINDLY TO GIVING OUT F'S. You dig?!

It Gets Better...
One of the best things that I could ever do was Face myself. When I came to terms with the state in which I existed, it was mind blowing...I began to check and balance my life and began dealing with 1 issue at a time, until I checked the bucket and there were no more issues to be dealt with. By no means am I saying that I am perfect; However, there is nothing that is TRUE, that I deal with, that I am not willing to and have not CONFRONTED. I'm making room for my blessings, instead of leaving them on the way side because there's no room! Get that 1, ohkay!

"With wisdom a life is changed and by the hand of the wise a nation is restored." YMC

The "PHRUIT" of Reflection
Instead of finding myself at another memorial service for a dear loved one, or in deep reflection during a good song before viewing a body, or even sitting at the beach picking up sand and watching it fall through my fingers and become enthralled in the ideas of getting better, doing more and living healthier, I PRAYED FOR PEACE. The more that I began to deal with my own LIFE, THE EASIER IT BECAME TO RELEASE MY FEARS...
When I began to think about my life, and all that I've experienced, I made peace with the things in my life that I was not able to change. I knew that I needed to get back in alignment with the Creator. I found that there was discenscion between ME AND MY DREAMS, which resulted from a spirit of procrastination that I picked up during a bad storm in a Good Season. Nonetheless, I laid every broken and cancerous burden at the ALTAR OF GRACE. I found no need in trying to revisit things in my past to try to rethink, to redo, and change; but what I did do, was make notes of those things that I needed to work on, so that I could progress and grow into who I am DESTINED TO BE. Through prayer, meditation and plain old still quiet time, I AM, moving into the exact place, where I need to BE. MY DESTINY.

My Dearest PHAMLI,

Living is now my passion and expression, well my reasonable service...I wanted to grab your hand and invite you to walk with me on the journey that I have embarked upon. I believe that
"What doesn't kill you, will make you stronger". There's no amount of ministry or education that would have prepared me for this season of my life. Facing yourself is the hardest thing that you have to do, but the BEST THING TO DO. Although, I've shared alot, there is so much more to share, and frankly, this blog is not big enough to do so, lol! As always I believe that the best is yet to come.

My prayer is that you were blessed by this piece, and that it has touched you in some way, with a good form and maybe cause you to sit on the "Potter's Wheel" so that you too can be "Divinely Shaped" into who and what you need to be. May peace, love and tranquility be yours today. May you rise higher and become COMPLETE! My hope is that you find satisfaction and contentment in the YOU that YOU ARE NOW AND THE YOU TO COME. I commend and applaud you in advance for the efforts that you make to GO HIGHER! IM BACK!

With love and the Greatest intention.

Belazadu'm

Yahminah McIntosh

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