BloomPHIELD

BloomPHIELD

I opened my eyes on a new morning

besides PHORTUNATE PHRUIT

and realized that I'd never seen the Sunrise like this

I skipped through a field filled with the most beautiful roses grown on the Bridges of Heaven's county, placed in my way before I began to dream

I changed my mind today about

how I looked at Love

and what I expected from it

I heard love Blooming in Phorbidden Phields that

have favored my words for entry

I changed my heart in the midst of

character building moments that challenged me to

open up and receive that of which I've been sharing all along

and realized that it wasn't wrong but the timing in its own right

was mating with destiny

for the first time in my life, I truly smiled not because of the glamor of what has been done for me

but the priceless treasures in the little things

that I now happily accept and receive

all around me sways peacefully to the rhythm that my excited heart shares

the birds, the wind, the trees, the rocks that fall down the hills that lead to my castle

I've found a peculiar optimism buried within the trenches of my liquored tears
and I'm renewed, and fashioned WHOLE again

I closed my eyes today, while sitting beside Growing PHRUIT

and am resting, enjoying and looking forward to the sun's

Phortunate return...

Yahminah McIntosh Copyright 2010

PHUNNY Valentine
...The last balloon has been released and the teddy bears have found their rightful place upon the bed in between the two pillows that dress its crown! Some of us are starting to pick up the rose petals thrown from the night before (or morning) and cleaning up the wax that spilled throughout the night or day...Whatever your exploits, the essence of Valentine's Day lingers through your memories of days past and those to come, hopefully giving you both something wonderful to look forward to next year!

Although I believe that we should create special and monumental times with our partners, I am not a fan of waiting long periods of time to do so. I believe that Valentine's Day and Sweetest Day are not the only times of the year when we can make efforts to express our affections, spend QUALITY time together or experience romantic moments. GOT NO TIME FOR THAT! EVERYDAY SHOULD BE MADE SPECIAL!

Personal Celebrations
Who doesn't like to celebrate designated Holidays! If your partner is special to you on these Holidays, then I am sure that they are the rest of the year as well. No matter what you may go through TOGETHER, sometimes you will find that taking time out of your LIFE, Your Day and your own enjoyment, to show them that you care, CAN ACTUALLY MEND WOUNDS AND START A HEALING THAT ONLY THE TWO OF YOU CAN PARTAKE IN. Through your enjoyment of the PHRUITS that your togetherness PRODUCES you will find new strengths on new levels, and that, my SWEET PHAMLI is priceless!

I believe that whether its twice a year or four times a year, there's never enough that can be done to Celebrate YOUR partner. Whether its a simple or complex gesture, just do it, because that is what makes your specific relationSHIP special! Give them something to think about and put a little something on their minds that makes them smile or blush. Remember its the simple things and a little effort can go A LONG WAY!

Remember - doing the things that your special one desires, takes nothing away from you. It actually adds to you, because that is one more attribute and characteristic that will keep you on their good side! SMILE
LAZIbone

I believe the reason why so many people get into relationSHIP funks, is because they are LAZY! That's right, I said it. I believe that we have to be motivated to do more in our relationsSHIPS, especially if you want them to work. It's important to be mindful of the other person, to plan quality time (yes in the hustle and bustle of this bad economy) and it's important to always make a note to let your special person know that they are exactly that, SPECIAL! Just because you don't feel like saying the things that YOU KNOW THEY LIKE TO HEAR, or do the things THAT THEY ENJOY, doesn't mean that they don't REQUIRE IT.

Give it Up, Don't Give Up

Sometimes, you just HAVE to put the okey doke down and do something different! In my opinion there should never be a day that goes by that your partner doesn't know at least how you feel or receive SOMETHING from you (like: a hug, kiss, card, term of endearment, wink, poem, letter, note, phone call, email, gift, touch, quality time, dinner, lunch, breakfast, intimacy, voice mail, etc...).Now, if your first thought is, "Hey I can't do all of that or I don't have the time". It's okay, but at least PICK 1. GOODNESS! (SMILE)

Although people can be complex and often times difficult to please, THEY WILL RESPOND TO CONSISTENCY!! Sometimes when going through a rough patch in a relationSHIP its difficult to continue doing something sweet that you've always done because YOU'VE BEEN HURT; However, THAT MIGHT BE THE ONLY THING THAT Brings Forth The NEWNESS OF YOUR RELATIONSHIP.

Envy Not

Now we all know how easy it is to become envious of someone else's relationship, especially when yours is lacking in a certain area, right? I believe when two people are intentional about pleasing one another in ways that they've learned that the other ENJOYS, it WILL MAKE FOR A BEAUTIFUL PARTNERSHIP/RELATIONSHIP! Your partner's conversation should not be dominated with the continuous mention of what someone else's partner did for their special one, but appreciation of all that you've done and efforts you've made. FYI, if they don't have anything to say, then maybe you need to give them something to talk about.

I believe that If you lift up your partner,

you will draw all of your desires to you and your needs will be met!

Communication Is Key

Remember, communication is key and asking your partner what they want and desire is essential to the healthy foundation in which your relationsSHIP is built. Your partner might just adore the way you recite poetry; but if you break out in song all the time and they don't respond, you can't be upset, because you didn't pay attention to what they desired. I suggest opening up the lines of communication, and expressing freely. Be open to speak your mind and the more you talk, the easier dissolving inhibitions will be. Set goals together, and one of them being, getting to a place in your relationSHIP where you can LEARN one another without holding back. Always, ask questions and never finish sentences when it comes to listening to your partner's needs, because assumptions can make you miss the best part of learning your special one's uniqueness. Plant greener grass WHERE YOU ARE, Remember that weeds that you see from afar, can appear green as well.

About Last Night
One of the awesome things about having someone special in your life, with whom you can enjoy the PHRUITS of a RelationSHIP with, is that you don't have to be limited in what it is that you can do!!!!!!!! UMUMUM (ohkay!)

Whether its traveling, dreaming, partying, laughing, discussing your future, or whatever you desire, it can be wonderful.

I believe you should ENJOY one another, HAVE A BALL! Set Goals, Make Plans, Dream, Go for long drives, Dedicate Songs to One another, etc...! Remember You Must Be Proactive, Innovative and Out the box, when it comes to pleasing your mate.

In today's society with the economy's current state and our schedules being so busy, often times our mates fill a line in our appointment books, this is not good! They shouldn't be just scheduled in, but made apart and be treated with care and intention. Plan for their voice to be the last one you hear in the evening before you rest, and the first one in the morning after waking (if you can) because there ain't nothing like feeling special. Remember, everyone is different and just because you don't need something or something is not important to you doesn't mean that your partner doesn't need it. That's what healthy sacrifice and compromise is about. Learn it, Live it Use It.

LOVE no Limit
Often times I believe we get caught up in reminiscing about things as if we can't do them again. Like magical nights, phenomenal conversations, sweet dances, good dinners or really awesome dates. Sometimes couple's get stuck inside the box and are afraid to try something different. DON'T BE AFRAID TO STEP OUT THE BOX AND ENJOY ONE ANOTHER.

Remember doing things Just Because, are alright, its a beautiful thing when you just want to bless your partner with a token of your love, appreciation or thoughts. There are so many people in this world who look for love and use its undisciplined affections as rebounds or quick fixes. I believe that having something that you can build upon and enjoy with another willing human being is AMAZING!

The Sweet Test

Ok, now we understand that we are not limited to celebrating and thoroughly enjoying our partners, on designated holidays. I believe that there should be at least two days out of a month set aside for you and your sweetie to do something special, have a date night and enjoy one another without interruptions (work, kids, etc...) Make plans for just the two of you, whether its a romantic dinner, a night out on the town, a beautiful night at home a rendezvous somewhere special, watching a movie together, etc.. Make memories LAST!

If you know that you partner likes to be romanced, then do it and do it well, Goshdarnit!! If you know your partner desires you to role play, then guess who needs to learn something new! How about a simple request to wear something, don't be stubborn and compromise, they are the only ones that will see you in it. How about if they love the sound of your voice, or accent, you need to be working on a lyrical serenade! OHHKAYY!!!

Whatever YOUR partner's thing is, you should have a PHD in it!

My Dearest PHAMLI,

This was a beautiful week! I tell You, because I've learned how to receive good things in its due time. I had a free moment between pieces and wanted to share this piece. I completely support the desires of others to maintain strong and healthy relationships and believe that sometimes we have to see ourselves higher than where and what we are in order to reach even the goals and desires that we for our relationships. It is my prayer that you find new and exciting ways to get up and NURTURE your relationSHIP and find the beauty in the origin or your union.

If you have ever found yourself in a position in your relationSHIP where you've noticed that your good intentions were pleasing to you only, PLEASE CHANGE THEM QUICKLY! Remember, envy of outside relationSHIPS has no place within your relationSHIP, and when you enter into a PartnerSHIP with another person, your job is to please them as their job is to please you - REMEMBER THIS!

I challenge you to have, an Easy Conversation with you partner, and ask them, "WHAT CAN I DO TO PUT A SMILE ON YOUR FACE?" Remember we all react to things differently, but hear them all the same! Plan an evening or two or three with them and enjoy them, have fun, smile often and kiss much, and whatever you do KEEP GROWING AND ENJOYING LIFE TOGETHER! Until Next Time

Be Well

Belazadu'm

Yahminah

an excerpt from

SoHaI

A margin call for encountered eyes

what you see through me

I enjoy anxiously

Floating while reminiscing

as Love's fate begins fixing

the pain caused by destiny's vixen

causing granted wishes on the run to listen

giving Remixed invitations

warming fresh innovations

a thousand roses for your thoughts

tic toc time indebted to our wants

as fantasies confirm reservations

touching where winds won't blow

rhythmic movement of our souls

healing wounds we can't show

flying through moon clouds real slow

to crazy feelings locked by HOPE

butterflies rest between our toes

made sane by our connection

we've grown complete and now whole

if we stop now,

we'd lose the fruit of what we've invested

crowned heads you and I

I follow you, closing my eyes

your lead I must know

quieting my storm as you flow

as we travel through Love's station

the sweat of life's clothes your face and

we enjoy the inside of passion

bodies overreacting...

Yahminah McIntosh Copyright 2010

Lovgistics 101

PHLOwers in BLOOM

May times when in relationships, we oftentimes forget that we are not in them alone, and there is another WHOLE person involved that has their own feelings, ideas, opinions and set of ways of doing things. We have to step outside of ourselves and learn to accept the other person and all that they have to offer as we expect them to do for us. Everything will not always be our way, and vice versa. Once we are able to think of the other person more than ourselves, we can learn new ways of nurturing our relationships so that there are no holes and gaps.

As many people prepare for Valentines Day, I challenge you to aspire to build a healthy, lasting and enjoying relationship filled will love, enjoyment, peace and love that will last beyond February 14. In the midst of your planning something Special, take time to write some of the goals that you have as an individual and those that you desire with your special person. Remember, no matter how much we "DO US", those that love us would like a piece of our time, hearts and minds as well. Whether its quality time, conversation, having fun together, etc...Do it. Make it a point this week to tell them and show your significant other how special and important that they are to you. Step out of yourself and have a BALL! Enjoy yourself, your week and eachother.

An excerpt from

"Lov"gistics 101 (Instructions to - learn it, Apply it and Preserve it)

Sometimes you have to sit down,

and take a deep breath, inhale what you want to change

and exhale making changes

relax for a moment, and at that second visualize what you want to happen

where you would like to be, and what you want to become

Start taking inventory of thyself, and if need be change your mind set

Organize your thoughts, reveal your desires, move with action

correct your mistakes,

and pick apart the causes and the effects

or better yet, how the decisions to delay your growth may affect

the ones that you love, who require you to go an extra step

Truly you know that love is an action word, often times doubling as an adverb

None the less, we must not forget from life's experiences what we've learned

You must apply the wisdom that we've heard, whether from an elder

or an inexperienced nerd, as long as the shoe fits, it works

and never act as if you have forgotten your worth,

exposing yourself to meaningless conversations filled with negative words

Many of us carry note books, filled with notes that we took

expressing feelings, during times when our experiences were character building

and the benedictions and outcomes of how we got through those turbulent life streams

Carrying bags full of broken dreams, some in tact, but most shatter kicking and screaming

we've even cracked our own jokes, about being provoked to break them on our own

Walking around unfamiliar outskirts, growing bitter, guarded and alone

Enjoying the voice of "RITE NOW" lovers giving us unhealthy sweet strokes

Finding a comfortable place in boxing rings with friends

learning right jabs and left hooks, that you can't wait to use on your next victim

entertaining ideas, about being a playa, but in your heart that's not how you see your future

You begin to notice your traveling patterns through life,
and how you've conquered pain induced sleepless nights

Praying for "The One" and Better Times,

straying away from detrimental soul times

Closed up shop, cuz your heart gets cool then burns hot

then you find yourself becoming someone that you're not

and you've had to take a chance, to table romance

until on your own two legs without staggering you could stand

and no rebounding, that just leads to disappointment

So your bad decisions, pay attention before you make them

and willing hearts don't start fires, so use your discernment before you take them

and never love someone so much, that you can't see straight

and when you know you're being played, bow out the game with grace

and choose the words carefully that you allow into your ear gate

You seek balance, but call it A CHALLENGE?, cuz you're out of sink with the FATHERLINK
and when you're tired of being tired, that can't be the only time you allow HIM to speak
a beautiful bird can't fly long on one wing

and without God's strength your changes won't be lasting
you do understand that His love is all you need to be COMPLETE?

You must clear your thinking pallets of old files full of

miscellaneous jar gin, destructive thoughts and failed strategies

replacing them with positive intentions and hopeful pedigrees

It's important to specify the position of your partner

placing them in a place that YOU WILL NEVER FORGET

set apart, untouched and protected for you to enjoy as you see appropriately fit

Crown them proudly with significance

Making emotional arrangements accordingly
disciplining yourselves to be present, open and willing

to Listen, to Love, and to Enjoy with authority

This is your blessing!

Don't move forward too quick, nor shoot without direction in the dark,

don't dive deep without looking, and make crystal clear your part

May God Bless You on your journey to Love and Prosperity!

Yahminah McIntosh Copyright 2010

A New Thing

A NEW THING
Many times in life we don't take the time, to make the time to listen to our lives. Whether its during the turn of the year or during a trial that refines us. I've experienced such rawness of pain and jubilant happiness, that I had to search and pray for a perfect balance for my life. Although it seems that you can't have one without the other, it is never too late to try to achieve that of which you know you need, A STATE OF GOOD PEACE.



Today is a good day and yesterday is gone, thank God, because I have some things that I must do within this time that I've been given. I'm Growing into a New Woman, Embracing some New Things, I've Changed my Mindset, I've made a commitment to walk away from things and individuals that did not compliment my life. I've gotten older, wiser, healthier and tougher, and am happy about where I am, and am looking forward to where I have to go. I'm getting closer to God, My heart is being taken care of very well, I see clearer and I am EMPOWERED NOW BY THE GLIMPSE OF HOPE THAT HAS BEEN KNOCKING ON MY DOOR WAITING TO BE GREETED WITH MY OPEN ARMS. FINALLY I AM ARRIVING AND I AM ARRIVING RIGHT ON TIME. It feels so good to be Alive and still have the opportunity to LIVE MORE ABUNDANTLY. Indeed...







The Conversation with God
...On December 31, 2009 at 11:56 P.M., I was in prayer and in a state of complete stillness. I prayed for the strength to hold on and the Will to continue to WANT to Succeed. I prayed for wisdom and knowledge and I asked for understanding in all things.





I asked for the courage to be able to continue to FORGIVE EFFECTIVELY so that I may CONTINUE TO OVERCOME and I prayed for GOD TO MAKE ME A DISTRIBUTION CENTER FOR HOPE AND ENCOURAGEMENT THAT I MAY GIVE OUT WHAT I RECEIVE, ONLY TO RECEIVE MORE. I was thankful, grateful and completely full of a spirit of Worship. I began to lay everything that weighed me down at the ALTAR OF GRACE and I decided to close my eyes and walk away and let them ALL go...



In my Spirit
When the clock struck 12:00 A.M. and we had made the transition into 2010, I realized that what I had just done, would require an ENORMOUS AMOUNT OF ACTION FROM ME, and It was well with my soul, because I am up for the task. I was welcomed to The First Day of the Rest of My Life...FRIDAY! It was like a good payday, directly deposited into my "Life's Account". I just needed to make sure that I was a good steward of all that I had received.
I realized that the more that I grew, that I had become more



I remembered that in 2009, I had began to face the biggest storm of my life and I am happy to say that the rain, wind and tornadoes didn't break my spirit...(Get that somebody!). I had prayed and asked God for strength and realized that you can't be strong if you don't have any challenges to get through that will make you stronger. 2009 was no walk in the park and unlike 2008, well, let's just say I'm glad its 2010! He will never ever, give you more than you can handle, its how you perceive the amount of strength that you have that will determine how you handle what comes your way. He will always have your back!
The Resolution
I listen to alot of people in the course of my days, and hear excuses, stories of pain, blame, etc...I hear the reasons why being stuck is better than stepping out - because of fear and why staying broken hearted is easier than being LOVED TO LIFE!~ I've heard it all. I often think about the platforms for change that we fail to build, once we make decisions to change and still expect for life to go according to the unintentional plans that we carelessly make.



When you change your mind about where you are in your life and what you want out of it, there really is no monotony, because you create the pace in which change can happen. We are in control of how the rest of this plays out, no matter what happens. I realize that there may be stop signs, hurricanes, forks in the road, slanderers, wars, and scandal that may come against us, but in the stillness of these attacks we always need to have an effective strategy on how we will move forward, become better, survive, heal, succeed and atone.


The Revelation

To be refined by your experiences is difficult and although there is nothing to it but to do it, its easier said than done. I just like to think of it as a do or die, type of situation. If you don't make a decision to get better, grow up, keep your word, get it right, do right, or believe in yourself, you will surely die where you are. If you continue to do the exact same thing, guess what kind of results you will get? No matter how many times you go to the grocery store because you need food, if you always leave the dish washing liquid at the counter because you want to spend that $2.45 on renting a movie, then you will always have a sink full of dirty dishes! Understand that.

I don't care if you have to go to "THE WALL", just work it, because the truth is that at the end of your days, there is no one who cares more about YOU than YOU. Others will just love the way that you care about yourself and benefit from that fruit.

Retribution
When you sow you reap, and whatever a man or woman thinketh so is he or she, right? Why do we hold ourselves hostage? We spend so much time taking from life one good experience, person, piece, etc... whenever they are given and we just store them up. How about giving back to life, through good intentions, consistency, trust, and taking good chances on life! I am clearly speaking about being responsible, and sowing into our lives what we want to receive. We kid ourselves thinking that, our ways are the best ways; However, if you continue to get the same or similar results, there is some releasing of effort that needs to happen on your part. Release your good intentions and energies into the universe, discern and hold back when lead, BUT BY NO MEANS DON'T EXPECT TO REAP FROM WHAT YOU DON'T SOW. (get that somebody!)
KNOCK KNOCK
Its not a Who that's there but a
WHAT that's shinning the buckle of its own fairness
Welcome to the Beginning of "Opportunity's Knock"

It shall not stay long, for its visit is purposed

and its pace, meant to be a directive for your life

MOST ABUNDANTLY

Everything in your life has its place, no matter what it is. The challenge is finding the appropriate place for them and restructuring your perception of reality to meet the needs of your destiny. Hummm, what I am saying is that, if you can't see yourself growing and getting better and flourishing in every area of your life, than you will never get there. You must believe in yourself.

HIGH 5
Many people will say that, they often times fall off the bandwagon after starting something, and many times struggle with finishing...I believe that this happens because they just get too busy, or suffer some kind of breakdown, brought on by the affect of distractions. Since I have big bold "AHA Moments" - Lol! taking up the time that "Second Guessing", used to, I have no choice but to believe that all of those are excuses and no matter what happens in this life, I have the power to overcome all shortcomings. I realize that me mastering my own personal gifts and Thoroughly enjoying my SEASONS, has its perks, and the fruit of my own betterment, brings satisfaction that will last life times!

"REALITIZE"

Life is truly comprised of what you make of it, How you discard of the garbage, how you extract the juice from your lemons, what you do with them, how creative you get with their nectar, what you sow into the universe and how you perceive everything. This is your life and no matter how much you interact with others, what you see, what you have and what you give, the outcome will always be up to YOU.

You don't have to be a slave to your own ignorance and bond servant to "just cause" for your past mistakes. I believe that everyday should be started fresh and every moment cherished as the unpromised next. There is no guarantee in the length of your life and its important to aspire to be on a continuum of improvement. Write down your visions, goals, aspirations, prayers, dreams, grocery lists, schedules, etc...because our lives respond to intentional efforts of change and consistency and this will be good as you move forward.

Sacrifice
Pay attention to your life and respect it. Whatever you desire to do, remember that no soldier wins a battle without having to fight. The many struggles to be better people and keep our words comes at an awesome price, "OUR LIVES", and paying it would be easier for us all if we understood that what you sacrifice willfully, will be replaced bountifully! Make 2010 a year of uncomprimised change and intentional growth and maturity. Aspire to be a beacon of light, goal to succeed in every area, work on improving yourself in every way, work on your relationships, parenthood, skills, gifts and throw out the baggage.

My Dearest PHAMLI,
This is the Beginning of the Best part of your Life! Don't question why it is, just keep on living until the answers reveal themselves and know that everything happens for its appointed reason. No matter where you are, what you want and where you want to be in your life, if you are not there, then know that when you stand up and look ahead, the road that you seek has the indentations of your footprints lightly placed for a Good Journey. I will stand with each and everyone of you, and look out into the horizon of life and expect change to happen as we all move forward and work toward our individual goals.

MY WORDS TO YOU

Love your life, respect the ones that you love and care about you, manage your time well, step out on faith in all things, don't hold back the gifts (work them), make commitments when its time, eat right, exercise, lose weight if you need to, be better parents, work smarter, get closer to God, get grounded, keep your words, be consistent, mature grow, learn and take time to make time for yourself. Remember, once you do your part, your life will respond, and everything will begin to fall into place as it shall.
I assure you that the best is Yet to Come!

Until Next Time
Be Well
Namaste'
Yahminah

an excerpt from

A'ZULUTION

Legends of the fall

spare me not the gist and meaning of the truth

and go not far from this season's scar

and cast no frost upon

legitimacy's fruit

I come in my own peace

energized from a marathon purposed twice over

and I've bagged my conclusions, and resolutions in sacks with holes, strong enough to hold them until this life is over

grow weary not your aching fingers

for your pointing of the index,

has empowered me

I've listened to the simple understandings

and know how every story ends

raise the bar, high but not far

and here's can't from my vocabulary

I've run, but not from what I deserve

ears deafened by the ambush on my paradise's turf

loud screams of my misdirected things

have no light intentions of moon light navigating

it all,I've heard

raised myself off of envious mares

and recycled hurt

snatch not away those things you feel I can't comprehend

be watchful for I am a gorilla fighting a war that will never end

I am cautious unless my grand mutilations be seen as of yet

and I find creation slightly more than I can be, and accept...

I speak not words, I don't mean, and those I do

their wings I clean

I mistakenly by default master consistency

as my yes'es be that as they may

and my no's empty

I believe nothing is worst than doing nothing

and that some kind of wonderful thing

you capture only takes the place of that one thing

that's left a fracture

on your stalled movement, into your happily every after

where your manufactured words have unrecognized meaning...

Yahminah McIntosh Copyright 2010